I said goodnight
& Left prepared to die
Leaving behind the only kind of love I had ever known
Once living only to please
So convinced, I was so diseased
But being with you was like squeezing blood from a stone

But now I have crawled to the top it seems
Even thou you are still inside my dreams

Chorus
And I’m screaming and I'm laughing
I found peace you said I never could
Yeah I'm screaming and I'm laughing
That’s my salvation you never understood
But I did it just like I said I would

I had to leave
To allow myself to speak
I searched my youth to find the truth inside
despite all your jokes
I faced all of my pain
Though you said I had nothing to gain
Nothing that couldn’t be solved with just one toke

So I have found my way thru a very twisted maze
I can’t believe I left you behind in your haze

Chorus
And I’m screaming and I'm laughing
I found peace you said I never could
Yeah I'm screaming and I'm laughing
That’s my salvation you never understood
But I did it just like I said I would

Bridge
Checked myself, no broken bones
I'm finally free, and out there on my own

Chorus repeat
And I’m screaming and I'm laughing
I found peace you said I never could
Yeah I’m screaming and I’m laughing
But I did it, just like I said I would
but I did it, just like I said I would,
so what the hell ,so what the hell, do you think of that?